Marked Absent

So I have been absent from this blog since November 2011. In actuality, it explains a lot about my issues with weight loss, self esteem, and life. Sometimes you are ABSENT from your own life.
It can be because you have taken on too much responsibility and are living a busy but happy life, it can be because you are not in a good place, or it can be because life is a roller coaster and WHO the hell has time to keep up with a blog when they are doing so much other stuff?

The funny thing about the prior statement is that I could reiterate it with the word "healthy lifestyle" inserted for blog. WHO has time to keep up with a healthy lifestyle with so much other stuff to do? Obviously not me... as I plummeted far and deep from my intended path and watched the scale go higher, higher, and higher. I have my excuses.... (1) I teach (2) I have no time to exercise (3) I eat when I am stressed, sad, happy... Shit, I just love to eat (4) I broke my ankle at my first 5k (5) I have adult onset asthma now. Blah, Blah, Blah. Truth is, it is a mindset. You have to rewire your brain to think differently. This is a hard task with so much conflicting stimuli in life. I am a teacher, I am a mother, I am going to school to get my masters, and I do keep busy with other things I am responsible for.. BUT I am a human being that needs good health to live a long and healthy life so I can continue to be the one thing that is the most important from that list- mother.

I need to be here for a very long time so I can witness and partake in the life I created. My son needs his mother now... and then. I need to be healthy enough to be the mom he needs. This will not happen if I let the excuses and the stimuli sway me. It is not easy being a mom... more so a mother of a child that has needs that exceed other children. It is not easy being my son as I have my own insane set of needs. Just ask my husband.

So.... I am back. I cannot promise I will post weekly as I have a classroom blog I keep up with for my class. I can promise I will make it a point to share exciting news and gripe about downfalls as we all have them and they are what make us grow as people.
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My current state of mind was created when I stepped on the scale and it shouted back. I weighed 226 lbs at my last doctors appt which was just before the new year. I made a promise to change that. I have lost 11 lbs in the month of January but stalled out a week or so ago. I am not following any one single plan. I am counting calories and tracking carbs/sugars via My Fitnesss Pal. I am also trying very hard to get out and run 2-3x weekly. I completed my first 10k yesterday in preparation for my first half marathon April 14th.

I hope to drop another 8-10 in February and will adjust my intake til I start seeing results. MY hope is to find a doable real life change that is NOT A DIET but a reasonable intake which is not void of some treats.

I will keep you posted....